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Whenever you say "Please don't tell (insert name here)," I think you actually want that other person to know. Especially if you keep repeating it to every person that you talk about whatever, what else is there to happen but for that person to know? And honestly, how can anyone expect a decent answer if they beat around the bush and keep asking all the people who are not directly involved? Please explain to me how this could ever be possible. Plus, saying that we are conniving--are you sure you're talking about us or about yourself? Get real. All I have to say is that you're not the center of the universe and I don't need to explain myself to you. But if ever we do get to meet, you better pray that I'm not in a bad mood at that time or you're going to hear it from me. And the truth is going to hurt for you. I don't know why. But it would.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Yesterday, I was pretty busy doing last-minute tasks. I wasn't even able to eat properly the whole day. I was a little moody due to lack of sleep. And I had to make sure my documents were in order...or at least, as much as I can before I can really finish them next week. As usual, I didn't notice the time of the day. Although my table was beside a window, I never really took the time to look outside. Aside from a quick view if it was sunny or rainy, I never really bothered to pause for a moment to just...well, pause. And last night, RJ (an officemate) said, "Wow!" I asked why and she told me to look outside. I glanced back to the window and saw myself reflected on the glass window. And I'm pretty sure she wasn't referring to me. So I took a step forward and looked up into the sky and saw the beautiful colors of dusk. It was an amazing sight. And it felt so right that I would see it on my last day. A pretty fitting sight before I leave.
When it was finally time to go home, the office seemed deserted. I was standing at the entryway to the room where I worked and I saw that it looked "still." The bean shaped table was completely empty save for the telephone (which I daily cleaned with alcohol), a paper cube which I didn't bring, and a headband which Bheng (another officemate) left on my table (we didn't know who it belonged to). The calendar which RJ and I worked on when we were still new were hanging empty on the wall. With my bag heavy full of my things which used to occupy the pedestal, I turned to close the light. Is it my imagination or did the office look sad?
Thursday, January 03, 2008
I've been thinking about smiles lately. And how they greatly light up faces. I must confess...I'm enchanted.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
I wanted to say "Oh my God! What have I gotten myself into?!!!" but then again I think I'm worrying too much. So to calm down, all together now, let's chant: ohm...ohm...ohm... Are you feeling relaxed and peaceful yet? I'm not so I'll just say what I wanted to say.
For my second term this school year, I'm only taking up two subjects. They're not just any subjects. They're two major...MAJOR...MAJOR subjects. And I have no idea what we're going to study about for those two. Luckily, I have one gigantic book on one of my subjects. But as I was taking notes earlier, I realized...damn! This is really hard! I've had two books photocopied for the other subject but I'm only picking it up tomorrow. And to top it off, I'm also studying for the JLPT this December 2. Let's just say I've forgotten everything I've studied for that eons ago and I'm having a teensy weensy panic attack. Okay, okay. Ohm...ohm...ohm...
But when I think about it, I'm enjoying myself. Not only because I need to tell myself that. I'm really happy that I'm actually busy and doing real honest to goodness work and study at the same time. I did this before and I'm glad I'm doing this again. Of course I forgot all about the worry bugs that keep nipping at me about time and all that. But again, I like what I'm doing.
To keep up my good spirits, I've bought many colored pens yesterday. And I didn't scrimp! I've indulged myself with buying a new fat little notebook as well and a new eraser and mechanical pencil lead with the accompanying mechanical pencils. Did I really need to get all of these? Of course not. But I wanted to get them and I did. So, I'll get back to taking notes now with my new Stabilo wine colored pen. And later on, if I feel I need to take a break, I'll be brushing up on my kana with my new Staedtler colored pens on my new fat little notebook. Talagang nakastress na new, ano? 
I had an odd dream. I don't remember much. But what I do recall is that I was in S!ng@pore. Really strange. Considering that I don't live there. I was in a house with several individuals. And one guy was going to work and he was kind of going to show us around. Just a bit. And the people he was going to show around were me and one of my classmates in school right now. Let's just call her Petite G and the guy Smiley E. But I'll just type G and E for short. Anyway, to be frank, I kind of liked E in real life. Nothing serious. Just a crush. A serious crush? No. Not really. But I kind of liked him for a while. Before I knew he had a girlfriend. And after that my crush for him kinda pfft. However, I found out just recently that he and his gf split up. Did hope come alive? Probably. But not as much as before. To continue, E was going to work. And the odd part was that he was wearing this blue cover-up suit. The reason I call it that because it's the type that I see mechanics on T V shows wear. We were really in a hurry. I don't know why. So was G. I was so confused with her. She kept zipping off. E, on the other hand, kept disappearing. I was alone in a strange country and I didn't know where to go. Plus, I wanted to buy something but I couldn't because I didn't know where I was. I just remembered being in the stairwell where everything was white. E was at the top and G ran down. I also went down and found boxes of donuts in the open. It was supposed to be for the participants of this event thing happening but I snatched one--sort of like Dunk!n's choco m@rble frosted here... Hehe. And then I woke up. I really find my dreams odd at times. And I consider this one, one of the strangest ones. It did put to mind that I want a donut for breakfast! LOL.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
I just found out that I have high b.p. And this is not good. Especially if I'm not eating well, stressed out, and have silent wars. Aw geez.
My name is Ria. This is my life. Terrible ideas may seem terrible but aren't they exciting?
